christina

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 01:28:03 GMT

what the hell is twitter?

sometimes i forget i even have this shit...

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 11:41:18 GMT

i am bored and hungryyyy

Tue, 27 May 2008 16:15:39 GMT

i have been sad

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 15:38:35 GMT

http://garfieldminusgarfield.tumblr.com/
garfield minus garfield

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 07:55:46 GMT

if you stand far enough away, this home gym is

....ernest hemingway?

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 03:54:15 GMT

my hair is incredibly long.

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 15:14:57 GMT

my grandma passed away one month ago. we all watched her die.
we watched her die four times and come back four times and then die a fifth time.
i visited her on friday when we still thought she had time. she bitched about how many blankets they put on her and how she was going to break out of the hospital. she told me that we should knock a piece of ceiling tile down onto her head so that we could sue the hospital and run away with all their money. i helped her drink her juice to keep her mouth moist. i said goodbye, felt strange about it, and then left.

at her funeral, i helped to write the priest's speech. i had to read a passage from the bible, something i did not enjoy, nor did i particularly like accepting the host or saying some of the prayers...i felt like a huge fucking bastard. i did these things to honor my grandma, though. i don't think she would have liked to see me treating her funeral like a silent protest...i still feel bad about doing these things, idk. anyway, i helped to write the speech. i cried especially hard. her funeral was LARGELY composed of my words. little things that i remembered about her. the way i felt about her - i glorified her. my letter to the priest made my dad cry. i don't even think i've ever seen him cry prior to that? idk.

maybe i am becoming more aware of the impact of the situation now because it is easter and she's supposed to come over and bring us candy and cards and money and bitch about the terrible state of the world and all the people in it.
maybe i am becoming more aware of the situation because i, just the other day, realized how old my dad is. he looks old all of a sudden and i don't know when his face changed. maybe it started when aunt mary died or when kevin had heart surgery. either way, his face has changed and i am scared.

my aunt is a pretty serious alcoholic. i don't know when that began, either. she's rubbing off on my dad. she's always passing out in her chair and getting loud and i have to carry her down the stairs to pass out. i'll tell you what i hate most about this, dammit. it's the fact that she comes to MY house to get drunk. she has her own fucking apartment and she chooses to come over here to be belligerent and sloppy and passes out on MY couch and i have to carry her there. one thing i hate most about alcoholism is that you wake up in the morning and you just don't remember how embarrassing you are.

i am feeling generally pretty sad about the current state of affairs. on top of everything, i am in debt, i am tired, i am not motivated, and i spent too long eating my feelings and it shows.

HOWEVER
i will be fine :)
i feel better now

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 01:01:12 GMT

i was just sent this picture and it made me vomit.
truly, i opened the file and ran to the bathroom and vomited.
twice.
all that hair upsets my stomach.

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 15:48:06 GMT

i have not been myself lately.

i quit smoking menthol cigarettes. maybe my lungs will bleed less now and restore me to my former glory.

hahaha

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 20:33:34 GMT

today i am feeling a great deal of depersonalization.
bah

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 22:36:20 GMT

the word of the day is fruition.
:)

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 01:41:46 GMT

it's my birthday!

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 04:03:52 GMT

i had too much coffee and i am sweating.

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 15:00:32 GMT

EVERYTHING everything having to do with fred phelps makes me just want to fucking vomit.
AND his fucking lunatic daughter!
www.godhatesfags.com

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 04:27:04 GMT

i didn't want to leave my last post as such a negative one.
i love...
lots of things!

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 03:16:16 GMT

seven days of being sick in bed has finally gotten to me.
i'm desperately lonely. i'm miserable and highly emotional.
i may have made the biggest mistake by quitting smoking this week. i'm going insane from spending all week in bed and it's increasing tenfold every goddamn second as the last of the nicotine is leaving my body. i feel horrible.

all i want is a cigarette, my boyfriend, and to FINALLY feel better
i dont even know what im saying

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 18:31:10 GMT

my new years resolution was to quit smoking.
it's going as well as can be expected. i haven't cheated, but i'm not feeling so hot.

i'm also trying to eat better, and MAYBE maybe (i don't know) start working out. the only reason the healthy eating is working is because i had the flu. we'll see how it goes now that i'm feeling better and can probably handle mcdonalds again soon.

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 00:53:30 GMT

still sick in bed.
it's been several days now.
i miss my boyfriend.

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 02:58:28 GMT

the flu is bullshit.
also, i think i am having serious caffeine withdrawals.
"quitting" coffee is actually really hard...?
i feel like garbage.

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 05:59:17 GMT

awwww :)

i am very sick today. it comes and goes in waves.
i am not vomiting; all is well.

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 02:45:04 GMT

i haven't been feeling well lately. sometimes it scares me, but mostly it's not worth paying attention to.
i'm not sure whether or not it is that i am lightheaded or i am coming down, but i feel like sleeping.

i don't even feel like wrting thsi shit anymore.

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 16:41:15 GMT

this has been a good christmas.

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 04:11:06 GMT

today i got a taste of what it would be like to come from a wealthy family.
frankly, i am very frightened by the thought of spending 1000 dollars in less than four hours.

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 05:35:18 GMT

my boobs are fucking huge right now.

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 16:32:41 GMT

well, i did the math and i spent two thousand dollars on cigarettes last year.